안녕하세요저는숙령입니다

"No matter how strong I may force myself to look on the outside, I'm still very weak on the inside"

Well, the whole family will be leaving me for UK in about another 7 hours time. This would be the first time my parents will be leaving me alone in Singapore for 3 whole weeks. No matter how much I tried to tell myself that I will be OK and every thing is going to be fine and fun, I just can't seem to off my tap if you know what I mean. I feel like I'm already missing them especially my dad even though they are still under the same roof as them. My mom sure thinks I can handle a lot of responsibility but in actual fact I'm not sure whether I can handle the entire household by myself, I'm really worried and scared for myself.

So much for wanting to study overseas and living all by myself! I'm already filling very burdened my all the things which I'm suppose to do in Singapore, more so overseas. I'm really thankful that my maid is not going to abandon me for something else, at least I hope so, or else I will be so dead! I bet my parents won't even be able to recognise the house when they come back from the trip if they were to entrust the whole house to me without any maid. I think this is when my faith in the Lord really steps in. This will be the time the Lord can seriously test me on whether I will still go back to Him when I'm in need. I will definitely say that I can't handle things by myself, so I'm going to pray everyday for strength and courage to go each day without much fear.

"Fear not for I am with you,

Be not dismay, for I am your god,

I will strengthen you,

Yes, I will help you,

I will uphold you with My righteous right hand."

[Isaiah 41:10]

Whoever is reading this entry, please pray for me, at least for this three weeks. I think I really need a lot of prayer support.

I'll try to write an entry each day to keep track of how I'm coping with stuff at home, in school and at church all at the same time while attempting to continuing my non-negotiable.

Love <3